The year has come and gown (2007)

The year has come and gown and the pain is still as strong.
As I look back I see a lonely soul running away from the hartach it faced. Running to a black whole where no light shined through. The tunnel seems endlessly long and dark.
Now a year has passed and the tunnel is still the same. Where there be any light and will the tunnel ever end? Only the future will let me know.
Will I face the future alone or will there be someone there for me? My true love will never be again but there could be someone else to share another life with me.
I have mixed emotion about moving on. As 2009 has started I have decided to take a stab at life again. I will become a part of the living as many have told me. I will attempt to go out again with other woman. I will let my friends fix me up with their friends but I am still not looking for a committed relationship. My feelings for Brenda are still to strong.
As I look at the pass I really cannot see what the future will bring. I hope the happiness that I am longing to know again.
One thing I know for sure I will never have the person that I had prayed for so. She was one of a kind and I was lucky to know her.
Thank you Brenda for being a part of my life even though it was just a short while. You will always be my one and only true love, my soul mate.